The Darkness – feat. Rachel Bloom – “Crazy Ex-Girlfriend”


Are you okay? I don’t know. I don’t know. But There’s somewhere that I need to go. There’s another ex I gotta deal with. In my life, I’ve had so many men But there’s one I come back to, again and again We’ve been on and off for such a long time and now he’s back and I’m feeling oh-so-fine He’s the darkness My first love, my true love The darkness He knows me better than anyone He holds me close, and whispers things that I don’t want to hear When I feel the butterflies of dread, I know the darkness is near We met around the time I started first grade Every summer after that we’d play Solitaire in the shade On Prom night he was the only boy I kissed And when he’d visit my dorm I’d remember how much I’d miss The darkness His love for me is pure The darkness He’s handsome for a metaphor and his name is Tyler Yeah, that feels right His name is Tyler He drunk dials me every night Tyler Tyler Tyler Your kiss feels like a cut You play drums and wear guyliner And your pet name for me is “slut” For so many years, I’ve used the darkness to feel But now there are things in my life that are actually real I gotta make a choice, darlin’ don’t ask me why So will I have the strength To tell the darkness To tell Tyler Darkness Goodbye Hello?

100 thoughts on “The Darkness – feat. Rachel Bloom – “Crazy Ex-Girlfriend”

  1. Proud of Rebecca for realizing that she still needs help. It can be a frustrating thing to admit to yourself, but so crucial if you want to keep moving forwards. It really shows how much she's grown as a character, backsliding is a real thing with mental health problems.

  2. Oh god Im crying next episode arent I? also the cognitive dissonance in this is great. It took me a while to realize she was talking about The Darkness instead of someone who was toxic to her and that's much much better and… fuck, too relatable as always

  3. This song personally came into my house grabbed me by the nape and told me that it was written to call me out

  4. Does anyone else think it’s a total badass porn name? “Hello, I’m Tyler Darkness. I’m here to f——— the light right out of you!”.

  5. Can we also take a second and appreciate both Nathaniel and Josh for behaving so well and not taking advantage of Rebecca? I know this should be the norm, but sadly still isn't.

    Also, kudos to the writing team for raising awareness for the heart attack symptoms in females which are way different that men's!

  6. Not gonna lie, despite the boyfriend-y language I was 100% sure she was talking about her dad at first. But I mean, in a way, she is.

  7. This song is so perfect, it gives me goosebumps.
    This episode feels like Rebecca's narrative has nearly completed its arc. So bittersweet that our beloved show is almost over 😢

  8. I've just found out about this show 2 weeks ago and I am completely obsessed (in an adorable way ofc)! I binged watched all 4 seasons and I was so sad to find out it's ending. I absolutely adore the songs and characters, you did an amazing job with this! I love that the show talks about real issues and doesn't sugarcoat or romanticize it. Many of the songs speak to me on a personal level. I already made myself a Spotify playlist so I can listen to my favorite CXG songs 24/7. Really excited to see what you're gonna do in the future! Lots of love

  9. I can’t tell you definitively how this song made me feel, because it created a kind of indiscernible emotional casserole, and I can’t quite pick out everything that’s in it. I picked out a bit of that special anxiety reserved for someone figuring out something you’ve been trying so long to hide, though. There was definitely a little nausea in there too. Mostly, though, I recognized the relief.

    I’ve never known how to explain that my depression has been with me so long, that it felt more like a comfy companion some days, or why exactly it took eight months of therapy to admit I was in serious trouble in the first place. I still keep it to myself that, for awhile there, I’d skip my meds for a few days, just to see how it felt, because I was forgetting, and that was terrifying. I don’t dare even try anymore, because, in the past, before I even got a few words into the subject, a clearly uncomfortable look or a comment revealing a lack of comprehension of my situation in general would have me shrinking back.

    This song felt like talking to a friend that gets it so well, it’s uncomfortable. The conversation is a little unsettling, and a lot sad, but it’s also a relief, because there’s a lot to be said for not being alone, even if the thing you and your companion share is killing you both a little bit.

    I never shrink back from sharing with friends and acquaintances how good this show is, but I want to make sure that you know it, too: This show means so much to me. Some days, it means everything. Today was one of those days.

  10. I found something really strange about this song; like most of them always feel like 50/50 parody/genuinely good song but this feels only like 25% parody. Like, this is genuinely great lyricism in relation to the darkness in the mind, especially when you have mental health issues.

  11. "For so many years I've used to darkness to feel, but now there are things in my life that are actually real."

    This line resonates so much with my experience dealing with mental illness for half my life. I'm eternally grateful for how this show deals with mental illness. It isn't just about finding treatment, it's also everything that comes after that. The grief over who you could have been. The strength to not fall back into familiar patterns and reach out again and again. It all often feels like a constant leap of faith. I am so grateful this show exists and it has genuinely gotten me through some very low points of my life.
    Not to mention, it's hilarious to boot. I'm not hyperbolizing when I say that this show is a blessing to so many people. (Goodbye Tyler Darkness…)

  12. Okay this song is so powerful and intense and then she names the darkness Tyler and it lightens the whole vibe and this is why Rachel is a genius ❤

  13. "for so many years, i used the darkness to feel. but now there are things in my life that are actually real."

    …still using the darkness over here, and striving to get to the realness…

  14. Honestly, sometimes I feel this show is personally attacking me from the past.
    Last year, One Day at a time gave me a reality check and that one is also supposed to be comedy.

  15. I love that her voice is so pure in this, she’s not putting any sort of accent on and that speaks volumes about the meaning of this scene ❤️😩

  16. I dont understand english very well, so when she started to sing i though she was talking about that teacher at Harvard and then she said tyler and i though she was talking about her shrink (like she dont know his name just last name) and then she said the called her slut and was like WITF? hahahaha Now i finally understand this sing and its beautiful.

  17. This is so weird and so not related, but does she oddly remind anyone else of Sarah Silverman in this? I think it has something to do with the tonal quality of her voice + her hair pulled back in a ponytail. XD #MyBrainIsSoWeird

  18. Me and my wife welcomed our son Tyler last November, pretty sure you can imagine our reaction to this song lol

  19. When I was watching this I was looking at pictures for an edit.
    An edit for a guy named Tyler. My crush. Thought that was ironic

  20. Thank you so much for writing and performing this. It was the first time I ever felt like someone understood. This show was truly special and I will treasure it forever.

  21. This song made me cry and laugh and cry again bc it represented exactly how I feel. I know I'm not the only one when I say that I identified with this show and with Rebecca, which helped me to get treatment for my own issues and made me feel like I was getting a hug through the screen. Thank you so much, Crazy Ex Girlfriend was a masterpiece and it will always have a piece of my heart.

  22. This song…it hits hard. Also, notice how a lot of the other songs have more fantastical elements and costumes ("Maybe This Dream", "Let's Generalize About Men", and "I'm So Good at Yoga" are good examples).
    But then this…it's just Rebecca. No fantasy, no flashy outfits, just Rebecca coming to terms with her mental illness. It honestly just hits really close to home with my experiences with that sort of thing…

  23. 3:00 Notice how the lighting might be an intentional reflection, so to speak, of her emotional state. On one side there's the blue, on the other there's light. When she goes to the therapist she's all lid up and bright.

    This might've been a coincidence but even if it is I think it's a beautiful one. 😄

  24. I just came here to say she not only suits this look so much, but it’s PERFECT for her voice. Like it fits so beautifully that no one else could sing this like she can

  25. I only watched that episode last night & when Rebecca sung that song it triggered something deep inside of me which made me tear up. And I played it over & over again. I've always felt a connection with her character but this time it's like.. hey this is ME! the "darkness" to me is that self destructive part of me that I go to when I don't want to be good or take responsibility for my actions when life gets hard or serious I let the darkness into the drivers seat & just be the passenger going along the road to total destruction of my self. I also have depression, anxiety & other "issues"& bad choices when it comes to guys. I think relationships for me are a distraction from working on healing my mental health?

  26. I only watched that episode last night & when Rebecca sung that song it triggered something deep inside of me which made me tear up. And I played it over & over again. I've always felt a connection with her character but this time it's like.. hey this is ME! the "darkness" to me is that self destructive part of me that I go to when I don't want to be good or take responsibility for my actions when life gets hard or serious I let the darkness into the drivers seat & just be the passenger going along the road to total destruction of my self. I also have depression, anxiety & other "issues"& bad choices when it comes to guys. I think relationships for me are a distraction from working on healing my mental health?

  27. Tyler is the emo kid who would shit on newer stuff like Twenty One PIlots but secretly blasted them and he would call himself Tyler!at the disco on myspace

  28. I can feel her fear and doubt when she says “so will I have the strength to tell the darkness, to tell Tyler darkness goodbye”. Rachel is such a great actress

  29. Ngl I got really attached to the character Nathaniel and it really hurt me that she didn’t chose him even if it was the right thing to do for her self.

  30. In my life I've had so many men
    But there's one I come back to again and again
    We've been on and off for such a long time
    And now he's back and I'm feeling oh so fine

    He's the darkness
    My first love, my true love
    The darkness
    He knows me better than anyone
    He holds me close and whispers things that I don't want to hear
    When I feel the butterflies of dread, I know the darkness is near

    We met around the time I started first grade
    Every summer after that we'd play solitaire in the shade
    On prom night, he was the only boy I kissed
    And when he'd visit my dorm, I'd remember how much I'd missed

    The darkness
    His love for me is pure
    The darkness
    He's handsome for a metaphor

    And his name is Tyler
    Yeah, that feels right
    His name is Tyler
    He drunk-dials me every night
    Tyler, Tyler, Tyler
    Your kiss feels like a cut
    You play drums and wear guyliner
    And your pet name for me is "Slut"

    For so many years I've used the darkness to feel
    But now there are things in my life that are actually real
    I gotta make a choice, darlin' don't ask me why
    So will I have the strength to tell the darkness
    To tell Tyler Darkness
    Goodbye?

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